No Motivation

Whaddup Hump dayyyyyyy?!!

So guys, lately I have no motivation to do anything. Literally all I want to do is lay in bed and watch Netflix. This is serious problem considering I have projects and homework due. I know I should be working on them but, I just don’t want to. I can barely get myself to go to class. Then once I’m in class I count down the minutes until I can go home and get in bed. It was so much easier to be motivated in high school. I guess because I had designated times to finish homework and start projects, and the work was so much easier. In college theres no one telling me to get to work or to go to the library. An it’s not just homework. I don’t wanna workout even though I know I should and I don’t even want to eat when I get hungry because that means getting out of bed. I really need to go to the store to get some food but instead I just keep getting stuff delivered. Thats also bad because I’m not working out right now, remember?

So can someone please help me out with some tips on getting stuff done. Please please please please. Thanks.

In other news, I miss my dog and my dad. My mom is moving back to Minnesota on Friday and I still need to find a job. Adulthood is kicking my butt right now. It could always be worse!

Love, Megan

Week One, DONE!

Okay, week one of my junior year of college is done! And, boy, was it an awesome week. Let me just walk you through it one day at a time because a lot happened and I suck at keeping up with the blogging.

Sunday: FALLFEST!!! So every year my school throws a huge concert thats totally free for students! It’s awesome! This year we had Eli Young Band, The Chainsmokers, and SchoolBoyQ! I think my favorite part of Fallfest was that I got to see all of my friends! Even my friends from home who don’t go to WVU! But, then something happened. So, the first love I ever had is one of my really good friends from home. We have literally been friends since we were babies. Well long story short I feel in love with him when I was about 12. I never told him although one of my friends ratted me out once but he asked me if I liked him and I lied. You know, for the sake of the friendship, blah blah blah. My feelings for him never really went away and I always thought that he liked me back. Well, his younger brother was talking to one of my friends on Sunday after the concert and he let something slip. My friend asked the younger brother how long I had known both of them, he said since forever and should have stopped. But he didn’t! The younger brother kept talking. Quoting as directly as I can here…. “Megan and Jon have always been close though. They have always had a thing They’ll probably get married one day”. WHATTTTT ARE YOU KIDDING ME. My friend told me this and I like totally freaked out. Not only did this kind of restart my feelings for him but also, it validated to me that Jon likes me back and other people can see it. Do you get what I’m saying. If the younger brother can see that we have had a “thing” than who else knows. I wish I wasn’t such a wuss. I wish I could just straight up ask Jon how he feels. Another problem, I’m in a very loving very committed relationship and I don’t want to ruin that either. Anyway I had to end my Sunday right there because that information was too much for me to process.

Monday: My mom and brother came to town for a short visit. I was super happy to see her because she lives about 22 hours away and I don’t see her often.

Tuesday/Weds- Nothing special just classes and homework. And sweating because it’s so hot outside.

Thursday- Had classes. After classes I decided to go out with my friends. Rach, Linds, Kayla, Kalynn and I ventured downtown to the club. There we met up with my two best guy friends Andy (ex-lover) and Steve. It’s always sometimes awkward when Andy and I are around each other because there is always a tension between us, the sexual kind. I look over and catch him looking at me and we’ll just stare and smile then bounce back to reality. Steven really wants Andrew and I to date but again committed relationship. So, we are all just dancing and having fun. Those boys never fail to tell me how pretty my friends are.

Friday, Everything is the same as Thursday but no class and a lot more beer. Same people, same club, same dancing, same tension.

Saturday- I had no plans on Saturday and I really just wanted to stay in and watch Netflix. I went to dinner with Andy and Steve and somehow got dragged out to a frat party. After standing around for an hour being miserable, my friend Kayla saved me by having me walk her home. When I got back, it was Netflix time.

Today/Sunday-I laid around and ate pizza and watched Netflix. I had a meeting at my sorority and came home to more Netflix and now I’m blogging.

This week I’m feeling like i’m in a rut. I get terrible but awesome news about my first love. I have to deal with the small touches and seducing smiles of my ex-lover. To top it all off the one person I want to talk to most in the world is on the other side of the country. Yes, my boyfriend is in Cali. I wish I could be there with him because I’m dying without him.

Anyway, there’s my boring week. I guess I just really wanted to tell you guys about my awkward encounters and the whole Sunday/Fallfest thing.

As always, I would really like some feedback. Sorry this post has horrible grammar. And sorry it’s boring.

Best, Megs

Netflix is ruining my life

So, for the past like three days I have done nothing but stay in bed and watch Netflix. I have not communicated with any other human being. I didn’t even realize that I had been lazy for so long. I go to bed late and wake up half way through the day. So, what’s the point of even trying to do anything productive because my day is pretty much over. Thanks Netflix. Thanks for drawing my in with your sweet temptations. Thanks so much for having the greatest shows and movies and thanks for making it so easy to say “just one more.” You really know how to keep a girl on lockdown. This has to end. Thanks for being so great, but I think it’s over between us.

Short, sweet, and to the point.

ily, Megan

Second Try…

Okay blogosphere,

Here we go… again… I’m gonna try to actually write in this thing now!

So big news, I moved back to college today! My summer was too short and not sweet enough. I am not really ready to be back at school if we are being honest. I am totally mentally prepared for the classes and work and having fun but, I’m not ready to be away from home… again. This summer was a giant realization that my time at home, in my tiny country town, is quickly fading. I know that I have all these big plans to move to California and become a big shot lawyer but I never realized how fast it was all happening. It feels like just yesterday I was applying to colleges not even graduate high school yet and now I’m in my third year of undergrad! Time really does fly when you’re having fun I guess.

I miss my family a ton already. I cried when I left my drive away because my dad wasn’t home for me to say goodbye to. Today I think God was really looking out for me in his own special way. About and hour into my trek back to school my car broke down! Yay me, right? Well, I called my dad and soon enough he was on his way to rescue me. At the time I wasn’t too happy that my car was broken but now I am extremely thankful because I got to hug my dad and say goodbye to him in person.

Its really hard for me thinking about leaving my family behind. (She says with tears in her eyes) They are the only thing that really holds me together. I wish time would just slow down. I feel like life is going way too fast. A fifth of my life is already over! That flew by. That expression “Don’t Blink,” yeah I take that seriously now.

Well hopefully I can keep you guys updated with all the happenings while I’m here at school.

Quick question, is it okay to post more than once a day?

Loyally, Megan

It’s Been Too Long

OMG, I haven’t posted in forever. I have been so busy. I feel like I never get a minute to rest. When I’m not at work, I’m trying to do chores at home and entertain friends and a needy boyfriend. I do not  get enough sleep and I sometimes forget to shower. So, I have a tiny but of time before I go to bed and just wanted everyone to know I’m still here!

So, I LOVE to read. I am currently reading American Sniper (I know I’m late). So far it’s awesome! and I’m only a third of the way through. It is intense and suspenseful but its great because you can tell he is writing from the heart also. I read about a book a weak and I am quickly running out of new books to look into. EVERYONE SEND ME SUGGESTIONS!

Let’s talk about that supreme court decision today! As a democrat I think it’s awesome, as a young person I think It’s awesome. But really, I don’t see why people are getting so bent out of shape. Just because before LGBT couldn’t get married in every state that did not stop them from creating a life together. And so many other states had already approved it. C’mon, this decision isn’t going to hurt you. Grow up and move on. This is a new era, times are changing and people are gonna live life the way they want!

Okay, I’m done with my random spat today. Hope you enjoyed my stream-of-consciousness writing!

Best, Megan

Oh, and leave comments!!

“You look pretty without makeup”

Today I was at work, you know, just doing my thing. I’m helping this man and he says to me, “You look so pretty without makeup!”

Does anyone else see a problem with this? It should not come as a shock to people that women can look beautiful without makeup. This really annoys me. The concept of making becoming a social norm also annoys me. Girls are starting to wear makeup younger and younger. I have never really been a fan of makeup. I only wear it on special occasions and when I do I only wear a little, basically just mascara. I can remember being in high school and people saying things like “you’re so lucky you don’t HAVE to wear makeup.” No one HAS to wear it! Society is putting so much pressure on women to become these perfect, flawless beings. Our social culture is forcing women to think that they have to wear makeup every single day or they will become social out casts.

I also think that men are putting pressure on women to wear makeup as well. But mostly, it might be women putting pressure on other women. Maybe it’s our competitive nature. Women put other women down because of how they look or how they act. This could be making us try to over compensate. Who knows.

All I’m saying is, I think I am beautiful with or without makeup. And I think all of you are beautiful with or without. Im not telling you not to wear it (because so people really enjoy makeup) I’m just letting you know that if you don’t feel like putting it on one day, you’re still going to look radiant.

Till tomorrow(ish)

Megan