No Motivation

Whaddup Hump dayyyyyyy?!!

So guys, lately I have no motivation to do anything. Literally all I want to do is lay in bed and watch Netflix. This is serious problem considering I have projects and homework due. I know I should be working on them but, I just don’t want to. I can barely get myself to go to class. Then once I’m in class I count down the minutes until I can go home and get in bed. It was so much easier to be motivated in high school. I guess because I had designated times to finish homework and start projects, and the work was so much easier. In college theres no one telling me to get to work or to go to the library. An it’s not just homework. I don’t wanna workout even though I know I should and I don’t even want to eat when I get hungry because that means getting out of bed. I really need to go to the store to get some food but instead I just keep getting stuff delivered. Thats also bad because I’m not working out right now, remember?

So can someone please help me out with some tips on getting stuff done. Please please please please. Thanks.

In other news, I miss my dog and my dad. My mom is moving back to Minnesota on Friday and I still need to find a job. Adulthood is kicking my butt right now. It could always be worse!

Love, Megan

Week One, DONE!

Okay, week one of my junior year of college is done! And, boy, was it an awesome week. Let me just walk you through it one day at a time because a lot happened and I suck at keeping up with the blogging.

Sunday: FALLFEST!!! So every year my school throws a huge concert thats totally free for students! It’s awesome! This year we had Eli Young Band, The Chainsmokers, and SchoolBoyQ! I think my favorite part of Fallfest was that I got to see all of my friends! Even my friends from home who don’t go to WVU! But, then something happened. So, the first love I ever had is one of my really good friends from home. We have literally been friends since we were babies. Well long story short I feel in love with him when I was about 12. I never told him although one of my friends ratted me out once but he asked me if I liked him and I lied. You know, for the sake of the friendship, blah blah blah. My feelings for him never really went away and I always thought that he liked me back. Well, his younger brother was talking to one of my friends on Sunday after the concert and he let something slip. My friend asked the younger brother how long I had known both of them, he said since forever and should have stopped. But he didn’t! The younger brother kept talking. Quoting as directly as I can here…. “Megan and Jon have always been close though. They have always had a thing They’ll probably get married one day”. WHATTTTT ARE YOU KIDDING ME. My friend told me this and I like totally freaked out. Not only did this kind of restart my feelings for him but also, it validated to me that Jon likes me back and other people can see it. Do you get what I’m saying. If the younger brother can see that we have had a “thing” than who else knows. I wish I wasn’t such a wuss. I wish I could just straight up ask Jon how he feels. Another problem, I’m in a very loving very committed relationship and I don’t want to ruin that either. Anyway I had to end my Sunday right there because that information was too much for me to process.

Monday: My mom and brother came to town for a short visit. I was super happy to see her because she lives about 22 hours away and I don’t see her often.

Tuesday/Weds- Nothing special just classes and homework. And sweating because it’s so hot outside.

Thursday- Had classes. After classes I decided to go out with my friends. Rach, Linds, Kayla, Kalynn and I ventured downtown to the club. There we met up with my two best guy friends Andy (ex-lover) and Steve. It’s always sometimes awkward when Andy and I are around each other because there is always a tension between us, the sexual kind. I look over and catch him looking at me and we’ll just stare and smile then bounce back to reality. Steven really wants Andrew and I to date but again committed relationship. So, we are all just dancing and having fun. Those boys never fail to tell me how pretty my friends are.

Friday, Everything is the same as Thursday but no class and a lot more beer. Same people, same club, same dancing, same tension.

Saturday- I had no plans on Saturday and I really just wanted to stay in and watch Netflix. I went to dinner with Andy and Steve and somehow got dragged out to a frat party. After standing around for an hour being miserable, my friend Kayla saved me by having me walk her home. When I got back, it was Netflix time.

Today/Sunday-I laid around and ate pizza and watched Netflix. I had a meeting at my sorority and came home to more Netflix and now I’m blogging.

This week I’m feeling like i’m in a rut. I get terrible but awesome news about my first love. I have to deal with the small touches and seducing smiles of my ex-lover. To top it all off the one person I want to talk to most in the world is on the other side of the country. Yes, my boyfriend is in Cali. I wish I could be there with him because I’m dying without him.

Anyway, there’s my boring week. I guess I just really wanted to tell you guys about my awkward encounters and the whole Sunday/Fallfest thing.

As always, I would really like some feedback. Sorry this post has horrible grammar. And sorry it’s boring.

Best, Megs

Netflix is ruining my life

So, for the past like three days I have done nothing but stay in bed and watch Netflix. I have not communicated with any other human being. I didn’t even realize that I had been lazy for so long. I go to bed late and wake up half way through the day. So, what’s the point of even trying to do anything productive because my day is pretty much over. Thanks Netflix. Thanks for drawing my in with your sweet temptations. Thanks so much for having the greatest shows and movies and thanks for making it so easy to say “just one more.” You really know how to keep a girl on lockdown. This has to end. Thanks for being so great, but I think it’s over between us.

Short, sweet, and to the point.

ily, Megan

Second Try…

Okay blogosphere,

Here we go… again… I’m gonna try to actually write in this thing now!

So big news, I moved back to college today! My summer was too short and not sweet enough. I am not really ready to be back at school if we are being honest. I am totally mentally prepared for the classes and work and having fun but, I’m not ready to be away from home… again. This summer was a giant realization that my time at home, in my tiny country town, is quickly fading. I know that I have all these big plans to move to California and become a big shot lawyer but I never realized how fast it was all happening. It feels like just yesterday I was applying to colleges not even graduate high school yet and now I’m in my third year of undergrad! Time really does fly when you’re having fun I guess.

I miss my family a ton already. I cried when I left my drive away because my dad wasn’t home for me to say goodbye to. Today I think God was really looking out for me in his own special way. About and hour into my trek back to school my car broke down! Yay me, right? Well, I called my dad and soon enough he was on his way to rescue me. At the time I wasn’t too happy that my car was broken but now I am extremely thankful because I got to hug my dad and say goodbye to him in person.

Its really hard for me thinking about leaving my family behind. (She says with tears in her eyes) They are the only thing that really holds me together. I wish time would just slow down. I feel like life is going way too fast. A fifth of my life is already over! That flew by. That expression “Don’t Blink,” yeah I take that seriously now.

Well hopefully I can keep you guys updated with all the happenings while I’m here at school.

Quick question, is it okay to post more than once a day?

Loyally, Megan

It’s Been Too Long

OMG, I haven’t posted in forever. I have been so busy. I feel like I never get a minute to rest. When I’m not at work, I’m trying to do chores at home and entertain friends and a needy boyfriend. I do not  get enough sleep and I sometimes forget to shower. So, I have a tiny but of time before I go to bed and just wanted everyone to know I’m still here!

So, I LOVE to read. I am currently reading American Sniper (I know I’m late). So far it’s awesome! and I’m only a third of the way through. It is intense and suspenseful but its great because you can tell he is writing from the heart also. I read about a book a weak and I am quickly running out of new books to look into. EVERYONE SEND ME SUGGESTIONS!

Let’s talk about that supreme court decision today! As a democrat I think it’s awesome, as a young person I think It’s awesome. But really, I don’t see why people are getting so bent out of shape. Just because before LGBT couldn’t get married in every state that did not stop them from creating a life together. And so many other states had already approved it. C’mon, this decision isn’t going to hurt you. Grow up and move on. This is a new era, times are changing and people are gonna live life the way they want!

Okay, I’m done with my random spat today. Hope you enjoyed my stream-of-consciousness writing!

Best, Megan

Oh, and leave comments!!

Day 2

So, I’m realizing that finding things to blog about is a lot harder than I had previously anticipated. My day was pretty boring watched tv, did laundry, went to work. Nothing to blog about there.

There is one thing thing that I could talk about… Caitlyn Jenner. Okay, first off kodos to her for having the courage and strength to make her life better for herself. I am in totally support of the transgender community so don’t take this the wrong way. It is really annoying to me that people (media) are calling her an AMERICAN HERO. When I hear the words American hero I automatically think of the soldiers. She may be a personal hero or role model to many but she is no American hero. I think people for the most part are pretty divided on the subject. Ive been seeing a lot of this on social media…or 

Basically, way to go Caitlyn you deserve praise but I do not think that you are an American hero.

There has also been a lot of media coverage around her (obvi) and they are already starting to criticize her. Like, damn people, let the woman be happy for five minutes before you start to tear her apart.

ANYWAYYYY just some thoughts I had, figured I would share!

Leave comments.

Megan

A few things to know about me…

As we are about to embark on a long journey together we should clear up a few things first.

1.) My name is Megan. I am currently in my twentieth year of life, living in the Wild and Wonderful in the greatest country on earth, the USA! For those of you who didn’t quite understand that: I’m 20 years old living in West Virginia and I love America.

2.) It is currently 11:51pm and I am trying to sleep but my brain keeps making me think about stupid things.

3.) I didn’t decide to start this blog on a whim. I decided a couple of months ago that I needed a creative outlet. Somewhere I can just write about what going on in my mess of a life. The great thing about a blog is other people can read it, and maybe we can help each other navigate life.

4.) I am a blunt, honest, whitty, fun, lovable person (atleast I like to think so).

5.) I really hope I can stick to this whole blogging thing because so far I’m having a ton of fun.

6.) This blog will probably be a lot of me talking about my family and friends and how sometimes they make me so angry but I still love them. I’ll talk about the things I’m struggling with and the things that are going absolutely right in my life. If I get boring let me know.

7.) Ending this list on my fav number, I really hope people read this blog. I hope people reply to this blog. I hope people can help me and give me advice. I hope we can go through life together.

Farewell for now!

Megan

(Is saying farewell too nerdy?)